Minor epiphany of the week

So as I was walking back from *yet* another failed audition, it suddenly occurred to me that all the disappointments one goes through really makes you appreciate things that you wouldn't normally. Like, at the moment, I really miss having a full time job that I have to go to every day, whinge about and ultimately get paid to do. So in the future, I'm going to actually appreciate the drudgery, as opposed to resenting it or taking it for granted. But I'm grateful even for this "in limbo" state of being, as it means that I have a rather obscene amount of spare time on my hands, and thus gives me the freedom to write a lot more, discover new interests, and even consider other career paths. In the end, it's actually kinda cool ;) For one thing, I now have some semblance of control over my weekends; I can plan things in advance, and actually know that I will be there! No more wistful "maybe, depends on work" every time I want to go away for a weekend. Ok I'm getting a little too excited here, I do want a full time job, promise! But it is nice to be living free, for a change; similar to student living, which is something I'm bitterly sorry I'll never get to do for real. Wake up lateish, go to a class or two, come home, read the internet, watch a movie, read a book, write a blog, read more internet, do a bit of work, got to bed. Repeat. Correspondence studying is not quite the same as being at varsity, but I at least get out to do classes with ballet companies, so there is some socialisation there. Maybe not quite as much drinking, but that's probably for the best. So my mission is to make the most of this brief and possibly last time in my life that I can, in (mostly) good conscience, be a lout. I intend to look back on it fondly in future, when I'm back to the grindstone, and appreciate my time of youthful freedom.